reflections…
posted in Friends, family, health, life, stress |Its been awhile since i’ve blogged. So much has happen that I just dont have a lot of time to go into…i’ll wrap it up in my end of year blog, i’m sure. Thanksgiving time always has me reflect on the gifts in my life. Its harder this year than others…I’m dealing with a lot.
In all honesty – whatever other crap is going on – here are the things I know to be true. And for them, I am extremely lucky and blessed.
1. I have a faith in God and Jesus. Whatever happens in life….whatever tests or trials I face…I can rely on that faith. Not everyone has that and I am grateful that I do because sometimes, its all that stops my mind from racing, my heart from beating out of my chest, and allows me to sleep. Sometimes…its more valuable than breathing.
2. I have a husband who would stop short of nothing to make me happy. I know others THINK they have that, but my husband has proven it. He has no faith that I am blessed with…but he follows God’s family plan and loves me like God loves the church. He puts our family and me ahead of anything. He loves his family fiercely and will do anything to protect and provide. He is a man of honor and strength. He also is a man of humor and kindness. He makes me laugh and smile like no one i’ve ever met. Nothing is real until i’ve shared it with him and my day isnt complete until we’ve connected. I could not imagine my life without him.
3. My friends. wow. I have some amazing friends. Just like every other American, I go about life mostly concerned with myself. My goal in life, from this point forth, is to be as good a friend as I have in my life. I have trouble with the term “best friend” because i’ve got so many. I’ve had – particularly this last few months – more life changing trials than ever before. I, when telling a select few of my trials, had friends offering to fly in from Michigan to support us. Friends who would drive from Arizona if we needed. Friends and family that had to be physically stopped from packing the car in Medford to drive up for us. I had friends that would cry with me, spend days listening to me with support, and spend hours on their knees praying for me. In a time when I am 100% unsure of some of my biological family, I am 100% sure of my emotional family and my dear dear friends. From friends that have known me 2 years, to friends that have known me since 3rd grade…these people solidify my faith in my ability to trust and to love.
4. The family I trust. You shouldn’t have to specify your family like that, right? To separate them. Unfortunately, I have to. I have a lot of biological family – and a good portion of them I trust and love so much. The others, I love….but I cant trust them, with my family or my heart. I have some amazing brothers and sisters…unfortunately they all live far away. I’ve always grown up with family around me and I am missing them terribly but knowing they love unconditionally from afar is reassuring. Tonight – i’m so grateful for my in laws. My Mother and Father in law consider me their daughter….with no hesitation. My brother in-law’s and their kids and wife’s do too. Its such a gift…and particularly this year…it is my life line. To know that I have a family that will protect my husband and myself – even at expense to themselves if necessary – is proof that I am right to (as the bible says), “leave thy father and mother” and make my husbands family my own.
I have so much to be thankful for – beyond the simple and amazing comforts of life (health, home, clothes, heat, food). The trials that i’ve seen this year have made that even more true. Some days, lately, I feel like my heart is breaking from pain…and my head is going to explode with stress. Times are tight both financially and emotionally. So when I feel that way, i’m going to come read this blog and remember all the gifts in my life….and i’m going to pray.
I love you guys!
