Have I mentioned how scared I am to not finish school? Or to not do good in school? Or to run out of money? Or that i’m wasting my time in school? Yep….all of that is true.
However, I will say that school makes my brain feel alive (and sometimes makes my brain feel dead) and while i’m NOT very smart – or rather quick – I’m getting better all the time. I’m learning everyday and some of it seems almost useful sometimes. I’m also learning to have some structure and self motivation again.
I’m sure i’m where I suppose to be….but i’m not sure how long i’ll be here. *sigh*
Also, i’m learning to chant when the anxiety gets out of control….that’s a useful tool. Such as right now, i’m chanting “comparison is the thief of joy”